my life.

I don't know how I would live without two things.
God and music. 

God is life.
Music's pretty up there too.

In all honesty, if I didn't know who God was.. I'd probably not even be on the face of the earth. My life would probably be taken by my own hands.. but I do have God. He loves me. He died for me. He redeemed and saved me from the depths of hell. I belong there you know.. but He took my punishment. He's pretty awesome. I owe Him my life. 

I was born with music. I was raised playing and listening to music. Whistling.. then violin.. then piano.. then singing.. then attempting to learn guitar hahaha but yea. Music is a part of me. If I was deaf, I would be the saddest person in the world. Well, not really.. but I wouldn't be the same that's for sure. It calms me.. makes me happy.. makes me sad.. makes me reminisce.. makes me wonder.. it inspires me.

Put music and God together and there's me doing my best to worship God with the musical talents He's blessed me with. But worshipping God with my life.. music or not.. is life.

doomed

I feel happy right now.. but at the same time I feel empty.

A guy friend that I haven't talked to in forreeevverr messaged me today for some advice and prayer :) I'm actually so happy whenever people want to talk to me. I was glad I was able to catch up with him.. and like most guys, he had a girl problem. When he started off telling me about her, I was beaming and I was legit smiling.. he finally found someone that would make him happy :D .. but then, he told me that she wasn't a Christian. I felt my heart just.. drop. It sucked.. big time. He was pretty sad and he told me that he'd ask her out right away if she was a Christian.. but that wasn't the case. He felt so confused and conflicted. I told him and a few people about a nickname for him.. so, we're gonna call him "bottle". Random, I know. Anyways, bottle really likes this girl.. and we used to be like, best friends.. so I felt so sad. I encouraged him to share the Good News of Jesus Christ to her.. but to be careful at the same time. I told him to make sure she doesn't say "yes" to God because of him.. but rather say "yes" to God because of how amazing God, Himself, is.

ladeedaaaa..

Then I shared. My relationship. From the first line of this post, I can't decide if my emptiness is from my relationship or the fact that bottle's girl interest isn't a Christian. Maybe it's both. I don't know. Anyways.. I talked to bottle about my thoughts on my relationship. Haven't really done that to anyone outside of my family.. except for one girl.. but anyways.. we shared. It was nice to talk to him again. Nice to see how God has been working in his life..

and.. now.. the reason for the title of this post. It's currently 3:25AM.. and I have a psychology paper due in the morning when I get to school. I haven't exactly started it yet. Well, I have.. but barely. I'm tired now, but I definitely can't sleep. Gotta get this paper done. Hence, doomed. But I'm not actually haha I just pray that God'll grant me strength through the day tomorrow. I'll probably end up taking a long nap in between my classes. I have a 5-hour gap between my classes on monday x_x.. but yea. Mondays are my favourite though. It's so.. chill.. but stressful at the same time. I find time to rest physically and spiritually when I just read and chill with God. It's nice. Anyways, I should probably start typing out words on the Word Doc about psych instead of this lovely blog which I barely ever use.

Maybe I'll post again sometime..
I'll think about it hehe

luckiest girl alive

:)

Give Me Jesus by Jeremy Camp

In the morning.. when I rise..
In the morning.. when I rise..
In the morning.. when I rise..
Just give me Jesus..

Give me Jesus..
Give me Jesus..
You can have all this world..
Just give me Jesus.

When I am alone..
Oh, when I am alone..
Oh, when I am alone..
Just give me Jesus..


Give me Jesus..
Give me Jesus..
You can have all this world..
Just give me Jesus.

When I come to die..
Oh, when I come to die..
Oh, when I come to die..
Just give me Jesus.


Give me Jesus..
Give me Jesus..
You can have all this world..
Just give me Jesus.

I'm so stealthy. I found your blog again .. by accident this time.

Restless by Audrey Assad

You dwell in the songs that we are singing

Rising to the heavens.. rising to your heart, your heart..

Our praises filling up the spaces 

In between our frailty and everything You are

You are the keeper of my heart

And I'm restless.. I'm restless..

Til I rest in You.. Til I rest in You..

I'm restless.. I'm restless..

Til I rest in You.. Til I rest in You..

Oh, God..

Oh, speak now for my soul is listening

Say that You have saved me..

Whisper in the dark, the dark

Cause I know You're more than my salvation

Without You I am hopeless.. tell me who You are..

You are the keeper of my heart

You are the keeper of my heart..

And I'm restless.. I'm restless..

Til I rest in You.. Til I rest in You

I'm restless.. So restless..

Til I rest in You.. Til I rest in You

Oh, God..

Still my heart.. 

Hold me close..

Let me hear..

Your still, small voice..

Let it grow..

Let it rise..

Into a shout..

Into a cry..

And I'm restless.. I'm restless..

Til I rest in You.. Til I rest in You

I'm restless.. So restless..

Til I rest in You.. Til I rest in You

Oh, God..

Let me rest in You..

I love love love my family.
So, today was Father's day.. HAPPY FATHERS DAY, DADDYY !!
Anyways, I'm actually going on a missions trip in a couple of weeks to .. somewhere in Ontario. I will be teaching kids about God and the amazing things that He has done. Also, we'll be running backyard/park Bible programs for these kids and disciple them in a way so that they can come to know God as their personal Lord and Saviour.
Anyways, back to what I was talking about.. my family.. I was .. "commissioned" by them today after dinner. My brother wrote about it in his blog LOL but I wanted to share a song that was.. influenced by his.. oddly profound words that he came up with on the spot LOL
The song : Let the Waters Rise by MIKESCHAIR

Anyways, I hope this song is as encouraging to you as it was to me. Root yourself in Christ and embrace everything He blesses you with. Use them to glorify His beautiful Name :) God bless :D