His mercy. His love. His grace.

Ephesians 2:4-5

But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ - by grace you have been saved..

God is good.

midterms

I'm doomed hehe
whoo hooooo! :)
yea, I have a nursing midterm tomorrow and I haven't really studied all too much yet. It's mainly on assessments of the systems and I'll have to be able to notice abnormalities on certain systems. I'm definitely not ready. I probably only know one abnormality that jumps into my head. It's called .. "barrel chested". Basically, you're chest is supposed to have a ratio of 2:1.. (width and length) and.. barrel chested means that your ratio is 2:2.. which is super weird. Now why that happens? I have no idea. I need to read up on things. I'm so behind. But shh. I'll work it out. I'll take a nap and stay up the rest of the night to study. I need to. I know I have to. Well, if anything, I still gotta try my best. Wish me luck and prayers are most appreciated. Well, no one really looks at this blog.. but prayers are totally welcome. I'd like to become a nurse one day and share God's love through medical care. I gotta do well haha. Okay. I'm just tired. So I'm rambling and probably not making any sense. I don't even know what  I'm talking about anymore. Peace.

my life.

I don't know how I would live without two things.
God and music. 

God is life.
Music's pretty up there too.

In all honesty, if I didn't know who God was.. I'd probably not even be on the face of the earth. My life would probably be taken by my own hands.. but I do have God. He loves me. He died for me. He redeemed and saved me from the depths of hell. I belong there you know.. but He took my punishment. He's pretty awesome. I owe Him my life. 

I was born with music. I was raised playing and listening to music. Whistling.. then violin.. then piano.. then singing.. then attempting to learn guitar hahaha but yea. Music is a part of me. If I was deaf, I would be the saddest person in the world. Well, not really.. but I wouldn't be the same that's for sure. It calms me.. makes me happy.. makes me sad.. makes me reminisce.. makes me wonder.. it inspires me.

Put music and God together and there's me doing my best to worship God with the musical talents He's blessed me with. But worshipping God with my life.. music or not.. is life.

doomed

I feel happy right now.. but at the same time I feel empty.

A guy friend that I haven't talked to in forreeevverr messaged me today for some advice and prayer :) I'm actually so happy whenever people want to talk to me. I was glad I was able to catch up with him.. and like most guys, he had a girl problem. When he started off telling me about her, I was beaming and I was legit smiling.. he finally found someone that would make him happy :D .. but then, he told me that she wasn't a Christian. I felt my heart just.. drop. It sucked.. big time. He was pretty sad and he told me that he'd ask her out right away if she was a Christian.. but that wasn't the case. He felt so confused and conflicted. I told him and a few people about a nickname for him.. so, we're gonna call him "bottle". Random, I know. Anyways, bottle really likes this girl.. and we used to be like, best friends.. so I felt so sad. I encouraged him to share the Good News of Jesus Christ to her.. but to be careful at the same time. I told him to make sure she doesn't say "yes" to God because of him.. but rather say "yes" to God because of how amazing God, Himself, is.

ladeedaaaa..

Then I shared. My relationship. From the first line of this post, I can't decide if my emptiness is from my relationship or the fact that bottle's girl interest isn't a Christian. Maybe it's both. I don't know. Anyways.. I talked to bottle about my thoughts on my relationship. Haven't really done that to anyone outside of my family.. except for one girl.. but anyways.. we shared. It was nice to talk to him again. Nice to see how God has been working in his life..

and.. now.. the reason for the title of this post. It's currently 3:25AM.. and I have a psychology paper due in the morning when I get to school. I haven't exactly started it yet. Well, I have.. but barely. I'm tired now, but I definitely can't sleep. Gotta get this paper done. Hence, doomed. But I'm not actually haha I just pray that God'll grant me strength through the day tomorrow. I'll probably end up taking a long nap in between my classes. I have a 5-hour gap between my classes on monday x_x.. but yea. Mondays are my favourite though. It's so.. chill.. but stressful at the same time. I find time to rest physically and spiritually when I just read and chill with God. It's nice. Anyways, I should probably start typing out words on the Word Doc about psych instead of this lovely blog which I barely ever use.

Maybe I'll post again sometime..
I'll think about it hehe