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Give Me Jesus by Jeremy Camp

In the morning.. when I rise..
In the morning.. when I rise..
In the morning.. when I rise..
Just give me Jesus..

Give me Jesus..
Give me Jesus..
You can have all this world..
Just give me Jesus.

When I am alone..
Oh, when I am alone..
Oh, when I am alone..
Just give me Jesus..


Give me Jesus..
Give me Jesus..
You can have all this world..
Just give me Jesus.

When I come to die..
Oh, when I come to die..
Oh, when I come to die..
Just give me Jesus.


Give me Jesus..
Give me Jesus..
You can have all this world..
Just give me Jesus.

I'm so stealthy. I found your blog again .. by accident this time.

Restless by Audrey Assad

You dwell in the songs that we are singing

Rising to the heavens.. rising to your heart, your heart..

Our praises filling up the spaces 

In between our frailty and everything You are

You are the keeper of my heart

And I'm restless.. I'm restless..

Til I rest in You.. Til I rest in You..

I'm restless.. I'm restless..

Til I rest in You.. Til I rest in You..

Oh, God..

Oh, speak now for my soul is listening

Say that You have saved me..

Whisper in the dark, the dark

Cause I know You're more than my salvation

Without You I am hopeless.. tell me who You are..

You are the keeper of my heart

You are the keeper of my heart..

And I'm restless.. I'm restless..

Til I rest in You.. Til I rest in You

I'm restless.. So restless..

Til I rest in You.. Til I rest in You

Oh, God..

Still my heart.. 

Hold me close..

Let me hear..

Your still, small voice..

Let it grow..

Let it rise..

Into a shout..

Into a cry..

And I'm restless.. I'm restless..

Til I rest in You.. Til I rest in You

I'm restless.. So restless..

Til I rest in You.. Til I rest in You

Oh, God..

Let me rest in You..

I love love love my family.
So, today was Father's day.. HAPPY FATHERS DAY, DADDYY !!
Anyways, I'm actually going on a missions trip in a couple of weeks to .. somewhere in Ontario. I will be teaching kids about God and the amazing things that He has done. Also, we'll be running backyard/park Bible programs for these kids and disciple them in a way so that they can come to know God as their personal Lord and Saviour.
Anyways, back to what I was talking about.. my family.. I was .. "commissioned" by them today after dinner. My brother wrote about it in his blog LOL but I wanted to share a song that was.. influenced by his.. oddly profound words that he came up with on the spot LOL
The song : Let the Waters Rise by MIKESCHAIR

Anyways, I hope this song is as encouraging to you as it was to me. Root yourself in Christ and embrace everything He blesses you with. Use them to glorify His beautiful Name :) God bless :D

work?

Yea, I just blogged a post about loafting and not liking work.. but I just remembered that I shouldn't have that kind of attitude. No one should. I want God to use me in whatever He puts me in. However, if I don't do my best now, how will it be possible that I do my best for Him later? If I don't do well now, I might not even become a nurse. *dundunduunnn* but nah, I'll become a nurse. Thing is, being a nurse is .. a lot of work .. a lot of time .. and I'm gonna have to be willing to work really hard to do well. Yea, it'll be hard.. but I know that if God directs me someplace, I ought to do my best for Him .. yea?

Might as well start now.

Hop to it.

aw man, I'm loafting so hard. I need to step up my game and finish my work. English.. then french.. then data.. then exercise science.. that's like, everything. Something for each of them's due in the 2 days of school this coming week. And.. they're major. whoohoo! LOL .. It can't be too bad. Prom's right around the corner. Hopefully that'll be my stress reliever. I'm so scared to do my work but I can't wait for it to be over with. Relaxation's right around the corner.. but I have to pass through doom first :( *sigh.. I can't loaft. I can't sleep. I need more sleep. I think I've been getting enough sleep.. but I've been feeling really exhausted. Maybe it's the heat. Yea, I'll blame the heat. I love it, but it's making me feel really fatigued. O well. Off to work I go. Oh, and I got unlimited texting. hehe. I changed my plan just now :)

so, I don't like working.

guess what?

I came back from a national music competition for school choirs, orchestras, bands and what not.. and for our chamber choir, the adjudicators gave us a standing ovation :)

ok, i'm done.

haven't blogged on here for.. forever.. but yea. just felt like posting something.. even if it's about nothing whatsoever.

hmm, he probably won't ever read this again.. but i found your blog. i kinda miss talking to you.. so i guess your blog makes up for it cause then I'll know what's on your mind.. but idk how often you blog.. it's not too often.. o well.. i think it'd be cool if we could talk.. or chill.. sometime.. haha..

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tina.

knowing that she's in pain.
knowing that she's insecure.
knowing that she's lost in the world.
knowing that she's not her own.
God is her Healer.
God is her Rock.
God is her Saviour.
God is her Lord.
she just has to remember that He loves her.
she just has to remember that He died for her.
she just has to remember that He will never leave her.
she just has to remember that He is her Father.
therefore,
she is an heir.
she is a warrior.
she is His daughter.
she is His princess.

e-circle. kinda.

if you don't know, the "e" stands for encouragement. generally people just encourage each other and stuff.. but just now, i received an email from one of my co-execs from my school's fellowship.. and he just encouraged and thanked everyone.. like, individually. he had a paragraph for everyone and when i read mine, i was .. so happy hahaha ! it's funny how a few encouraging words can bring someone up. i want to send an email to all of them now too ! .. but i have a lot of things due tomorrow. hopefully i can fit in some time to do it and send it out to all of them asap.. i started, but i'm worried i won't finish soon enough. i just finished one person, and hers alone is like.. 10 lines. LOL ! o well.. i should just get my work done and do it soon haha .. maybe i'll post it up on here after :)

regionals

w-w-wait. what?! so, basically.. today was a really hectic and unexpected day. there was badminton regionals and only the top two from the previous round of each division was able to go. in the last round, i made 4th. hence, i didn't have any intentions of going today. but, during my first period class, i got a text saying sunbathing along the lines of "charis! you guys can play today!!!" .... i was like .. what the heck? hahaha! but yea, turns out that the first place winner of the previous round injured herself prior to the tournament. so, i had a huge hassle of trying to get out of class, finding my partner who didn't have a phone, calling the taxi and just.. going there safely and what not .. oh, and rescheduling a french test I've delayed for about a week.. LOOOL! funny thing is, once we got there.. we were called to play.. and guess what? the court we were playing on was filmed by Rogers LOOOL how sick is that? so tomorrow, we're gonna be put on tv.. along with an interview.. tomorrow night at 7:30 on chanel 63 .. i think lol!

but yea, we got fourth. not bad considering the fact that we weren't even supposed to be there HAHAHA! anyways, I'm off. so much work to do.. and so little time.

-Friday, April 20, 2012.

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help

I don't know what to do. I have a few friends that.. abuse their body in ways that are not good. And I have other that I suspect that she's doing bad stuff to her body. I don't know what to do. I don't see her often at all.. if anything, it's once in a blue moon.. but I wish I could help her. Thing is, all I can do from where I am now, is probably just send her encouragements and just pray for her. Sometimes, we forget how powerful and amazing prayer really is. But yea, I'm not all too sure what to do.. but I really pray that God's name will be glorified ultimately in everything that I'm here for.

..

what in the world..

am i supposed to not be his friend or something? i don't even talk to him about anything other than school or felly stuff. if you have that mindset, i honestly can't do anything.. and i guess i won't do anything. don't expect me to look or talk to you anymore. how am i supposed to do anything when you think I'm two-faced..

think what you want.

i don't care anymore.

i can't care.

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so uhm..

I feel like I have to make right with you. There's this thing that's telling me not to do anything cause I don't think it'll actually help you.. but at the same time, I really want to be here for you if you ever need someone to talk to.. our have someone pray over you. You're taking prayer requests, but what about others praying for you? We're gonna burn out sooner or later.. unless we both step up our game and try our best to seek God.

and btw, I saw everything LOL even if you took them off, I saw them.. and I still see them.. uhm, I know that I may not be the one to say anything, but gah yauu in pursuing God :) Let me know if you want me to pray for anything in particular.. I'll be praying for you regardless lol

ok.. back to data =="

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a weird cut.

For the longest time, I thought I had a sore throat. You know that feeling when you swallow and it hurts like crazy? That's happening, but it wasn't until recently I that I realized that it's something else. Obviously it's sore.. and it's my throat.. ish.. but it's not what I initially thought. So.. over the weekend, I was doing a lot of screaming and cheering and what not for Show Choir Nationals.. and while I was screaming, I kinda felt something to randomly hurt in the back of my mouth.. so I didn't yell as much after that. However, I thought it was nothing, so.. life went on. The next morning, my throat was killing and that painful swallowing sensation came in. I shrugged it off.. but then yesterday, I decided to actually.. look.. and yea, I have a cut at the back of my throat. It's gross and painful.. but whatever. Can't really do much about it. But yea, it hurts :(

God reveals Himself in awesome ways

I haven't mentioned this yet, but during show choir nationals, I had the privilege of watching the show choir from Burbank High, California.. they are like.. THE top show choir and apparently the show "Glee" was inspired by them.. crazy huh? Anyways, for their finale, guess what song they performed? (yea, it was taken out of context, but STILL).. they did the song "Prodigal" by Gungor. OMMGGGG. When I heard that song start, I was actually freaking out with.. joy. But yea, it was amazing to see such a prestigious show choir perform a Christian song as they ended their set. It made me happy lol God is good :)

the key?

the key to time management.. is focus. it didn't matter how long you work.. but rather how well you work. likewise, i need to step up my game and focus. I've got so much due and I've been super busy the past few days so i haven't been able to get any work done.. o well :/
God.. help me do my best for You. if I do great, that's awesome. if I don't, that's too bad. Let Your name be glorified in all that I do.. including my school work haha

steak tartare

So, today during lunch.. my parents and I went to a French cuisine right outside the Sony Center. Anyways, one of the things on the menu was the "steak tartare". My mom thought it was like.. normal cooked steak.. but when she was ordering, she found out it was raw beef. like.. legit raw. no searing.. no cooking whatsoever. LOL! so, she didn't get that. my dad refused to get it too.. so they both got chicken. I ordered last.. and being the rebel I am, I ordered it. hehehhee.. when it came, it looked like a ball of ground beef.. but it wasn't, thank God LOL i looked closely and it was actually finely chopped meat with seasoning and onions in it. (note: i hate onions) .. but i ate it. and it was delicious! hmm, what else was on the plate? raw quail egg (i added it to the beef ball lol), chopped beets, pickled onions (they were pink!), green beans and mini dill pickles :) yea, it was an amazing lunch hehehhee

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calling all gleeks!

Talking about show choir.. WE MADE IT TO THE FINALS!!! So basically, there were 13 schools in the preliminary round today.. and we made it to the top 6 and are competing tomorrow! :) hehehhee SYNERGY ftw! lol that's the name of my school's show choir :) but yea, today went better than I expected.. my last post makes it sound like I dread show choir.. but in all honesty, I love singing, dancing and.. somewhat acting lol! and I guess my normal characteristics still hold.. I was able to feel more comfortable with the members today lol.. anyways, I'm super excited for finals tomorrow! :D

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the one awkward place.

Usually I'm the type of girl that can fit in just fine.. talk to people just fine.. make friends just fine.. hang around people just fine. Except there's one place I feel so.. out of place. Show Choir. It's kinda weird that it's that.. but it's true. All the Grade 12s that I know are all in their .. "dance-y cliques".. or "dramiee cliques".. or whatever.. and then there are all the younger kids. I think the only people that actually talk to me are the people in Grade 9. I feel so.. awkward. I fit right in. (my height kinda.. adds to that too..) but then when they start talking about school stuff, my mind keeps going "man, that was sooo long ago and seriously kids, don't worry" LOL but I can't say that. It's too.. weird. Plus, I think everyone there is like AY or AU kids. I'm special hehe. But yea, it's been getting better I guess. I need to break out of my shell and just have fun. lalalaaaa ~ we have Show Choir Nationals tomorrow! (aka no school) and it's in the Sony Center! (how cool is that? .. very cool) Anyways, I'm excited :)

be yourself.

what does that actually mean? if you aren't yourself, then who are you? "be unique" .. "be who you wanna be" .. but what if the person you wanna be like is "not you".. but it IS you cause you wanna be like that person.. right? hmm, or maybe you're trying to "find" yourself..? yea, i don't get that. you're already you. LOL i have no idea where I'm going with this post.. but the phrase "be yourself" confuses me. then again, maybe it's just another way of saying "be different".. why don't people say that instead? o well, whatever.. LOL just a thought.

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James 4:17 (NASB)

Therefore, to one who knows the right thing to do and does not do it, to him it is sin.

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it's inevitable that we sin everyday.. but this verse crossed my mind randomly yesterday. if we see someone in need and not help them, that's a sin. if we know we should do devos and spend time with God.. and not do it, that's a sin too. there are so many things that we just don't do and it's bad that we don't do them.. especially if we know it's the right thing to do. 

but yea, go be proactive LOL

(copynpasted from my Tumblr from March 26, 2012)

After all this has passed, I will still remain

After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain.

hating someone's a choice.. wouldn't it be so nice if hatred never existed. the world would be.. interesting lol

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True Love by Phil Wickham

Here's a lyric video of the song.. the words are absolutely amazing and really, praise the Lord for what He has done for us.

Good Friday.. is definitely Good.

People might say that it is the day Jesus died.. how can that be good? Thing is, what is good? Technically, dictionary.com says: "morally excellent; virtuous; righteous; pious" .. anyways, Jesus was perfect and He was good. As Jesus died, people may view Christianity as a "bloody religion" but.. you know what? Without the shedding of blood, there is no forgiveness. In Hebrews 9:22 it says: "Indeed, under the law almost everything is purified by blood, and without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness of sins." Even in the Old Testament, the Israelites had to sacrifice a pure and spotless lamb..

So, even if the images of pools of blood and a physically torn Jesus may be rather disturbing.. without it, our sins would still remain and we wouldn't be able to have a personal relationship with our Lord and potentially be with Him one day. But yea, Good Friday is so good but the Good News doesn't end here :)

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할머니.. 할아버지..

I'm glad mom and I were able to visit you two today. Even though your physical bodies may be gone, I'm comforted by the fact that you two are in heaven giving glory to our Lord. I pray that.. when God calls me home, that we'll be able to give Him praise together, side by side.

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they're off!

eating and drinking bbt without braces is amazing. running my tongue over smooth teeth is a.. beautiful sensation. hehehhee my mouth feels so free. for some reason, i can feel my gums more significantly than what i remember. it feels so weird..

but whatever, i like.

so, tonight's gonna be the last night I have this metal wiring in my mouth.. 


Hearing someone say this was .. really nice : "I guess I'll see your pretty face and perfect teeth next week!"
It's always flattering when people compliment you like that, but anyways, I'M SO EXCITED !

paranoid?

Maybe it's just me being paranoid, but I've been getting a lot of bruises lately. It's odd to get them on the back of your hand.. but I think I've had three there since TC.. which was mid-March.. and I have one on my right hand right now. ehh..
Maybe it is me being paranoid. It's not like I have some blood disorder. I haven't had a cut in a long time so I can't test to see if I have a clotting problem, but I'm sure I'm fine LOL It's just bothering me.
I have a few bruises on my legs too. Don't know how they got there.. but, whatever. Whatever it is, I know I'm forgetful so maybe I bumped somewhere and just forgot. That's probably what happened so I should be fine.

sing, be, live, see.. peace.

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yesterday? .. lol, it's over now.

Yesterday was intense. Like, legit.. all day was so intense. LOOOL! First I had a school badminton tournament. Doesn't sound so stressful right? But it was. The top 4 players of each category move on to the next round. That doesn't sound so bad either LOL but yea, there's a beast team that's also playing mixed doubles. (yea, I played mixed lol) I knew they'd get first.. but there were also other teams with provincial players I used to train with asking with my own school's other mixed team.... too intense LOL but yea, to keep things short, wet made it to the next round by God's grace :)

Next up, I had a show choir dress rehearsal that took place right after school.. we had a show last night and that last rehearsal was really important. Thing is, when it started, I was still at some other school due to the badminton thing LOOOL!! i was actually freaking out cause I'm sort of worried that they'll kick me out or something.. but yea, once again praise God that I didn't miss the actual practice time we had on stage lol!

but yea, I'm in the middle of choir practice right now so I'm not gonna expand on anything.. but the show was amazing. like, actually. and we got to go to menchie's (frozen yogurt) after the show hehehhee best place ever :) they got watermelon flavor!!! but yea..

yesterday was awesome.. but long. but yea, ptL :)

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in the world, but not of it.

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frustrated.

Wow, I'm actually so frustrated right now. I haven't really been stressing over uni applications.. but I just realized that I could've applied to McGill and get accepted. With my marks right now, I'd actually be able to get in. The only reason why I didn't bother to apply before.. was because it needed calculus. Can you believe it? I didn't accept the idea of going to the prestige school because I was lazy and I didn't want to change my schedule to take advanced functions and calculus. augh.. maybe you're wondering why I didn't take it?.. all of the other Ontario schools don't require calculus specifically. They just wanted one 12U math.. so I did data management. But yea, I'm kinda bothered at the moment.. but I'm sure it'll pass. Now I don't even know if I should just jump into whatever uni I get into, or just wait an extra year.. maybe do missions.. volunteer work.. build my resume.. improve some marks.. I don't know. All I know right now, is that I really need to lift this up into God's hands and let Him take care of things.

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april foos?

APRIL FOOS !
HAHAHHAHA ! someone wrote that to me today after trolling me. In my mind, I'm like "dude, learn to spell first" AHHAH ! but yea, it's good. I'm sure he does, but he just missed the "L". *sigh, too many people are trying to troll today.

I really don't know the point of this blog post, but on a more serious note.. I want to think about my grandma. Even though I've never met her, today is actually the day that she went to party with the Lord. I'm sad in a way cause I've never had the opportunity to meet her. Apparently she was super amazing and outgoing .. more than my mom (say what?) but at the same time, I'm really happy for her. Jealous sometimes too. She's at a place way better than the one I'm stuck on right now. This world is full of sin and if she were still here, she'd be pretty old and maybe spoiling me a lot.. BUT that's not the point. I'm happy that she's chilling with the Lord and giving Him praise :)

nts:

dedicate each and every day to the Lord.
let Him take hold and carry you through.
surrender everything.

replenish

This past evening, I had the opportunity to listen in on a Christian .. discussion thing called "Alive @ 9". It's ran by an organization called Regen+Nation LOL Anyways, I just wanted to mention a really awesome idea on my blog. Someone asked a question regarding on how to keep the passion going for God.. or just not becoming dull to what we believe in. (i'm a Christian btw XD).. and one of the things that they suggested.. was to preach the Gospel to yourself.. everyday. I found that concept super cool and I absolutely love it. Thing is, I need to start doing my devos and prayer time before I can even tell the Gospel to myself.

Before I continue, I'll sum up the Gospel really briefly:

1. God is holy.. which means He is set apart from sin. He can't stand that stuff. What is sin? It is anything we think, say or do that breaks God's Law.. aka the Bible. So in other words, God is perfect and can't stand impure stuffs.
2. We .. as humans .. are totally full and stuffed with this nastiness called sin. Because of it, we're separated from God :(
3. However, God loves us. Not our sin. Us. He wants to be with us.. so in order to do that, He sends His one and only Son to die on the cross for our sins (because the wages of sin is death).. However, He didn't just die there. He rose three days later! His blood was shed and ..
4. Our "slate" is wiped clean. Our sin has been erased (crazy, right?) and we are now able to be in contact with God through Jesus Christ, who died and rose again. Yay! What's even better.. is that we're now able to spend all of eternity with God. (cool, right? it better be!)
5. time to grow, grow, grow in God :)

Anyways, that was super brief.. >>" but yea, even just going over the Gospel and typing out basic stuff was already "refreshing". Doing that everyday would be crazy. Some people might think.. "well, if you do it routinely, won't it become dull again?" Honestly, God .. is not dull. Anything related to Him.. is not dull. And I think that if we truly meditate on His Word and what He's done for us, that passion will never die down because our Lord is just that awesome. Yes, awesome. 

I don't mind you doing your thing and living life.. but I mind when the hearts of other people are involved. Be careful with her heart. Don't break it.. Don't do what you did to your ex.. cause that was really not cool. I hope you don't mind, but I'm gonna keep you on close watch.. and tell her brothers to be on close watch for you. Cause honestly, I've known your weird side for three years now and it hasn't been pretty.. and I'm scared for her. Just, don't break her heart.

swabbed yet?

Swabbed? You're probably like "what in the world" ..
but anyways, today there was an event for swabbing mouths to see if you're a stem cell match for anyone in need. Apparently there are currently 994? (or something like that) patients that are in need of a stem cell match in Canada right now. Today we had a "swabbing session" to help find a match for those people. It's crazy cause apparently for chinese people (I'm chinese btw), they only have a 10% chance of finding a match because there aren't as many people that are willing to spend a few minutes to swab their mouths.. apparently they think that there will be a bone marrow transplant.. (which supposedly hurts).. but little do they know that that's only 10% of the time. 90% of the time it's just regular blood withdrawal which is no different than taking a blood test. Well, actually.. it is different because you get the rest of your blood back that has been removed of stem cells. it's pretty cool cause they replenish back in like, a few weeks.
Anyways, today we had skits, musical performances and some stories of current patients and past donors.
lalalaaa yea, I was part of the music team and i had the privilege to sing for the stem cell drive. The first song I sang was "when you believe".. maybe you've heard it before? but apparently it was so well done the first time that people actually requested it to be performed again at the ends of today's program LOOOL! hehe i found that pretty cool.
Anyways, the second song i sang was "you raise me up". Well sung too :) Maybe I'll post the videos up sometime soon LOL

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my dreams are haunting me too. i don't want to think about it..

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time to what?

let go.
let God.

one thing.. affects everything..

Oh my goodness, today was actually really scary. My stomach went berserk today due to breakfast and I had a french debate in class. It was actually pretty jokes. We were supposed to base our arguments on a love poem.. but hehe.. we didn't read it LOOOL. So, let's just say our points were so valid, but they didn't exactly correspond to the opposing team LOOOL Meanwhile, I'm having a weird wonky tummy. But yea, it was.. weird. Thank God it's gone now!

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6 more days !

lalalaaa ~
My braces are coming off next wednesay! I'm actually so excited. Although I'm worried that I might have little squares on my teeth from the metal glued to it, I'm still looking forward to having straight teeth without the metal stuff. I haven't had straight teeth since.. maybe.. grade 2? Wow, yo, that's 10 years. Yes, I'm in grade 12. Horrendous isn't it. Anyways, I'm excited :) You'll be seeing a countdown going on.

as a side note.. should i make this new blog a prayer journal.. or a random blog?

blogs?

wow.. i just realized i had this blog too.
i never used it.. so i guess this is my first official blog post on here LOL
i usually use tumblr.. but i'm probably gonna start blogging here and writing out my thoughts and what not.

oh well.. here goes to a new blog haha